k i needa list what i ate so i know.

1/2 an apple
1 cup of soup (100 cal)
couple pieces of carrots, lettuce, cucumbers,oninions 
two spoonfuls of cottage cheese
2 tiny meatballs
spoonful of rice
3 or 4 peices of broccoli


thats absolutley everything i ate today.

OMG . everything is going so horribly now!! everyone on my field hockey team thinks i have an eating disorder, and i skipped a pasta dinner and they all had a huge conversation about it... and they were gonna tell our coach. and i got so mad that i stopped talking to everyone on my team.. and now i have to have a talk with tthe entire team tmrw.. i really dont want to eat now =[

Wow. its been awhile.. but uhh. im stil around the same weight. today all i had was.. a yogurt in the morning.. two medium apples for lunch and then came home and had some cottage cheese and some peanut butter (ERR). I really wanna eat.. but im trying so hard no to!! but i gotta go shower.

 Ah... Idk.. i didnt do that great today... I didnt get a chance to eat untll like half an hour ago.. because i just got home but i had.. an apple for lunch, which i burned off. then when i came home, i had a yogurt, another apple, and some hot chocolate, and chewed and spit a salad and some other stuff... idk.. not good at all =[. i cant seem to move below154.. its weird.

OMG. I did so bad today!!!! Jesus.. im so ashamed... So this morning.. total binge on cereal and a donut.. and i had an apple for breakfast too. Then for lunch i had an apple.. Then i came home.. had half a yogurt, an apple and some cottage cheese (?). Then went to my dads.. where i had soup. and i was like okay, if i dont eat anything eles ill be good. But i came home and i went downstaires, and ate about.. a bowl and a half of pasta.. but i chewed and spit it all. Then i allowed myself to binge on more cereal.. BLAHH. im so fucked.

Awesomeee. 150. Didnt like eat anything today.. to depressed... we did really bad at our field hockey game and i played terrible so im not eating. Today however..I had, 2 medium apple (200 maybe total?) and I also had a small bag of chips that had 200 cals... yikesss. but thats it!

 Ahhh. Kinda binged yesterday... but it was all chew and spit.. but i havent gone back to my regular weight.. still a pound or two up from what i should be... 
Today was kinda bad.. still trying to snap back into my routine from the weekend i guess

3 medium apples (190)
2 bowls of salad(400)
cup of diet soda(0)
tea(0)

590? Must have had more... probably the salad i had, had more calories then i counted...I think im missin out on some stuff that i ate...

 Yay. 151. Awesomeeee.

 Sorry... I was really busy today so i couldnt post anything yesterday. But i kinda.. mini binged on thursday night.. and then i was 155 on friday =[. but i only ate apples yesterday and went up like 4 pounds!! but then saturday evened out.. because i woke up and i was 154 again.. i gotta get lowerr!! i wanna get down to 152 by monday.. hopefully i can. Today.. I've only had grapes and an apple and a banana.. kinda alot.. but i also had three peices of this chocolate thing.. im kinda mad about that. hopefully i wont eat anymore today!!

 Yayyy. 154 today. Goin down...

1 small apple(60)
1 yogurt(100)
2 parfayes (sp?) from mcdonalds(200? yuck)

Idk.. i really wanna eat.. but im gonna really try and not.. FUCKKKK.